A turn of Events

I'm embarking on a new chapter in my life in the next few months. I have claimed in this blog that I want my life to go beyond my eating disorder and my treatment. I have the chance to take a step in a new direction. I was accepted to the University of St. Thomas a few months ago. I was thrilled to be accepted but there was no way I could go to the school without significant financial aid. I found out a day or two ago that the financial aid came through. I am very excited. So what does this have to do with my eating disorder and recovery??? Everything.

I have not finished my undergraduate degree because I have sought treatment for my eating disorder and also I have not been in good enough health to attend classes on a regular basis. I've felt as if I have failed. Education is important to me. I love school and I really want to get my degree. It's been a goal of my since I was a small child. Now, I get to try again.

I am still trying to recover from ED. I am still working towards wellness. I know that school is going to be challenging for me because of this and other reasons. In the next month or two before school starts I will be kicking it up a notch. I will be trying even harder to get my symptoms/behaviors under control. I want to start at this new school in the best health that I can manage.

I know that it's going to be difficult to stay recovery minded in the next few weeks because of the holidays and the pressures from family but I am determined. In the past two or three weeks recovery has been up and down for me. Some days I do okay, others not so okay.

My plan for refocusing is to really get serious about my diabetes management. When I am managing my diabetes I tend to cut back on symptom usage, plus diabetes management is key in my journey towards wellness. I will also be keeping in touch with my doctor on a more regular basis, faxing blood sugar scores and food journals.

I have a dream that goes beyond my eating disorder and for me to reach this dream I must manage my eating disorder behaviors.

Here's to now and to beating ED,

Laina